Why?!

I, all the time, wonder
why we can't express what we feel
in a direct transparent way?!
why we have to hide,
manipulate, deceive, or be afraid?!
why if u want something,
u have to behave as u don't?!
why when you desire to love,
you have to show cruelty?!
being told that this is the only way
or else u r weak and don't deserve!
why when u feel fragile, vulnerable
need a shoulder to lean on,
a worm caring hug to embrace ,
u have to show u r strong,
insensible and have a mask face,
or else you'll be eaten alive!
abused and viewed as an easy prey!
Why when u need to be loved,
cared for, appreciated, cherished
u have to behave totally the other way?!