My DBA Graduation Speech - October 2013 :)

Courage!!

Courage is not that simple!!

We need to have a far-sighted vision to see how all this can lead us to!!

We need to develop a sense of purpose not just to go with the crowd;

We need a common direction and a strong system built by elite Egyptian minds that really unites us, a system to be shared and implemented by the good faith of every sincere Egyptian holding to his integrity and faith in spite of all the hardships

Real progress needs hard work and perseverance in face of challenges! Needs that everyone be sincere and honest with himself and with others!

I saw people who were below the line of poverty,

people who didn’t have anyone to support them, not even family!

However with their persistence, perseverance, integrity, hard work, and above all strong faith in Allah, he helped them to achieve miracles!!

And this is not fantasy; it is reality, in spite of the oppression and injustice they faced, they insisted to move on forward,

and the strange thing about them, that when you talk with them you sense gratefulness for little positive things they remember through their unpaved way full of rocks and obstacles!! They never hold grudges!

Life is hard, this is a fact; we should accept it and figure out ways to deal with it, Instead of cursing everything and everyone while standing still!

Allah will help only he who tries to help himself and move forward

"ان االله لا يغير ما بقوم حتى يغيروا ما بأنفسهم"

2010!

Here comes another new year!

New Hopes, New Beginings& New Aims

New Destinations, New resolutions,

New intentions& New determination!

But when I think about it,

I find that I have one ultimate Aim!

It is to satisfy my creator,

To be a tool of his will on earth

To make a difference in this life

Before one day I leave it!

To be remembered for the good deeds

Which I'm striving to achieve!

To be a good example,

For what Allah meant us to be!

I know I make mistakes,

I know I sometimes astray,

I know I fall down!

But I do my best to get up again!

I also know Allah is very close

I know he will never abandon me,

Of that I'm pretty sure,

And that is why I'm never afraid!

So here I am 2010,

Ready for your embrace,

Waiting for your challenges,

Ready to make the change!

I Learn!!

As I grow up, I learn that the persons who aren't supposed to
ever let me down, actually do!
I learn to trust no one!
I learn that one day I'll be forgotten like I never existed once!
I learn that I live because I have to; and not because I love!
I learn that after all, nothing worth that much!
I learn that it is a matter of time; till everything gets to an end!
I learn that I should spend my life only working for that end!
The only thing that worth devoting my self towards !

IF - Rudyard Kipling

If you can keep your head when all about you

Are losing theirs and blaming it on you;

If you can trust yourself when all men doubt you, 
But make allowance or their doubting too;

If you can wait and not be tired by waiting,

Or, being lied about, don't deal in lies,

Or, being hated, don't give way to hating,

And yet don't look too good, nor talk too wise;

If you can dream - and not make dreams your master;

If you can think - and not make thoughts your aim;

If you can meet with triumph and disaster

And treat those two imposters just the same;

If you can bear to hear the truth you've spoken

Twisted by knaves to make a trap for fools,

Or watch the things you gave your life to broken,

And stoop and build 'em up with wornout tools;

If you can make one heap of all your winnings

And risk it on one turn of pitch-and-toss,

And lose, and start again at your beginnings

And never breath a word about your loss;

If you can force your heart and nerve and sinew

To serve your turn long after they are gone,

And so hold on when there is nothing in you

Except the Will which says to them: "Hold on";

If you can talk with crowds and keep your virtue,

Or walk with kings - nor lose the common touch;

If neither foes nor loving friends can hurt you;

If all men count with you, but none too much;

If you can fill the unforgiving minute

With sixty seconds' worth of distance run -

Yours is the Earth and everything that's in it,

And - which is more - you'll be a Man my son!

The Right Path!

At many times I really doubt;

if I'm even pursuing the right path!

I feel that Allah is putting me under the test;

to prove my faith to him where I fail every time!

I can feel myself transforming

to someone that is stranger to me,

she is getting wilder and stronger by time

to the extent that she is dominating my soul!

There are times I think that I fell into a deep trap,

I'm struglling to get out

but I'm getting too week to keep on!

I feel too helpless,but I pray for Allah's guidance;

to show me the right deeds;

and strengthen my soul to stick to them,

and help me avoid the wrong deeds;

that gets me deeper down.

Many of those whom I know think that I astrayed,

that I'm goin furthur and furthur away from the right path.

If only our beloved prophet was here to guide me,

I would have followed his advise blindly,

but that is exactly the test;

to be able to decide for urself ,

what is right from what is wrong;

which is the most difficult way

to stay on the right path!

Need You!

Need to disappear in your arms when the world is cruel
need you to worm me when I am freezing of coldness,
Protect me when I am frightened of strangers,
Inspire me when I lack the vision,
share me the dreams, success& happiness,
need to belong to you and no one else,
need to be yours with my own will,
need you to tolerate my anger,
contain my anxiety, despair, and distress,
respect my ambition and encourage me in difficulties,
to have your children and dedicate my life to you and them,
need you to be my hero, my angel, and my friend,
need you to complete my spirit, strengthen my faith,
assure me when I am shaken, be my mentor, brother& guardian,
absorb my volcano of passion, and overwhelm me with your strength,
Love me without conditions, appreciate my unlimited love for you as well,
People keep telling me you are not existing
in this world of ugliness, imperfections, and descent,
May be I will meet you in Heaven
That is the only hope I have left!!

The Choice!

I'm passing through a very hard time today,
where I have to make the choice,
I didn't think it would be that hard!
The choice between moving forward or standing still
it seems very obvious where to start;
but it turned out not to be that simple,
actually it is tearing my mind apart!
is it really that difficult to take your chances,
your risks, adventures, not affected by those who deny?!
deny your right to make a choice,be responsible,
even if one day they turned out to be right!!
I can't believe how one could be vulnerable
lacking the confidence, the courage, the heart,
the heart that believes in its ability to make it,
to dare, to succeed, and even to stand apart,
apart from losers, pessimistic, indecisive,
those not realizing this is the aim of our existence,
meaning of life in every single part!
I think I should really believe in my competence,
it has never failed me so far,
and even if it would do so one day,
at least I had the freedom to choose,
trusting the voice coming from my heart!

A Child!

A child is lying within my soul,

playing, laughing from rejoice,

refusing to go by the stated rules,

preferring to wonder freely in the world,

spontaneously acting, fearing no blame,

talking sweet little words in her innocent way,

flying like an angle wondering in the sky,

passing all limits with dreams going far beyond,

dreams of angles in a fairy tale,

believing everyone else would be the same!

Not aware of the danger lying so close,

from those in whom she always have faith;

those to whom she return when she needs a caring hand,

a loving heart & a guarding soul.

Not recognizing she is in a complicated world,

where adults dominate and child spirit can not have a place,

to play, to dream, to laugh, or to enjoy.

Because simply l'm not a child anymore!

So l have to bury the innocent child within me,

and start acting like a grown up soul!

Will I be able to live that way?!

This really needs very much hard work!

Yet I doubt I'll be able to pretend!

And though the world is being too cruel,

I will live and die as the child within me,

playing, dreaming, laughing from rejoice!!

Inside Out !!

Inside, a turbulent frightened soul
Outside, Ambiguity, deception and fraud
Inside, a trembling, lonely heart,
yet full of passion and hope
Outside, cruelty, Absurdity and Freeze
No meanings for a heart or a soul!
Inside, struggling for Allah's obedience,
seeking his salvation and cure
Outside, temptations, immorality and abuse
No existence for belief or faith
Inside, a lost spirit questing to find the way
to optimum love above all
Outside, Insanity, brutality and nonsense;
sensuality is the persisting aim!
Inside, fighting for perfection and competence
Outside, recklessness, insensibility and discourtesy;
egocentricity governs how to behave
Inside& Outside, where will they be in Harmony?!
I believe Heaven is the only place!

Why?!

I, all the time, wonder
why we can't express what we feel
in a direct transparent way?!
why we have to hide,
manipulate, deceive, or be afraid?!
why if u want something,
u have to behave as u don't?!
why when you desire to love,
you have to show cruelty?!
being told that this is the only way
or else u r weak and don't deserve!
why when u feel fragile, vulnerable
need a shoulder to lean on,
a worm caring hug to embrace ,
u have to show u r strong,
insensible and have a mask face,
or else you'll be eaten alive!
abused and viewed as an easy prey!
Why when u need to be loved,
cared for, appreciated, cherished
u have to behave totally the other way?!

The Journey of Life!

Here I am, Pursuing my journey in life,
each day is passing like an hour!
enjoying my little achievements,
that makes me stronger each day,
it thrills me to learn something new everyday,
it makes life worth living!
making someone's life easier,
through a gesture, a word, a smile on the face,
makes me feel like a bird flying in the air,
it makes life worth living!
having a friend to share me the joy,
the sadness and the pain,
to hang out together on a free day,
laugh, talk, and even fight!
makes me feel worm and embraced,
it makes life worth living!
The love of ALLAH in my heart,
pursuing to deepen my faith,
makes me feel secure and shielded,
nothing can ever hurt me all the way
because ALLAH is my protector,
my savior, my guide to the way,
it makes life worth living!
The small joyful details,
worming up in my bed in a cold day,
reading an interesting book,
traveling to a peaceful place,
enjoying the sight of the see,
the touch of the sand,
the colors of a rainbow,
the fresh breeze in the air,
it makes life worth living
every single day!

What is Love?!!

Yesterday I was arguing with a friend about the very existence of love!
He said that those who claim to be in love can not withstand the first test of changing circumstances or facing hardship together, they act merely for their own benefit without taking their partner's in consideration!
I would say, then this was not love from the beginning, it was just a claim which failed in the first verification of its sincerity.
Though in my life I went through continuous heartbreaks, and unfaithfulness by those who claimed to be in love, I went through depressions and disappointments and loss of trust in those who where the closest to me
I went through experiences where the other partner's selfishness and self interest ruined the relationship after the first challenge or hardship;
Nevertheless I believe it would be madness to stop believing in love because someone was unfaithful or didn't love me back!
You can never deny the existence of love; it may be scarce and very hard to find, but that is because it is too precious to be found by those who can not cherish it for the rest of their life!
The thing is; what I don't really believe in, lies in the way people express their love, or to be more accurate the way people are trying to prove that they are in love.
If you are truly in love, you don't need to prove it, it just comes from the inside out, and it is shown all over you without the slightest effort done from your side.
Every word, every gesture, every thought, every move and every interaction all the way expresses your love.
Love enables you, inspires you, protects you and empowers you!
Love gives you the power of patience and the freedom of forgiveness!
Love is very subtle; u can not intend to express it in words if it is really sincere
True sincere love persists after everything fades!
This is the kind of love which lies within my soul and heart waiting for the right person who really deserves to share it with me, and to be overwhelmed with its strength and passion.
I may die before I can find that someone,
Yet this wouldn't make me disbelieve in the miracle of love.
Because it is the reason we exist in this life!
Knowing that the ever greatest kind of love is the love of Allah and the love for him,
Believing that this kind of love, for those who were close enough to him to deserve the feeling of it, is the greatest treasure anyone could live and die for.
It is heaven on earth,
And every thing beside this treasure just fades away and becomes nothing!

"اللهم ارزقنا حبك و حب من أحبك وحب كل عمل يقربنا إلى حبك. آمين"

To Break Free!!

I ,by my nature, hate constrains. they irritate me and make me feel uncomfortable,
I feel I am born to be free,to do whatever I want as long as I am responsible for my actions, as freedom doesn't mean carelessness, nor hastiness.
On the contrary being free, makes u responsible for whatever decision u make, and willing to face its consequences in a free will.
Actually I was raised to feel responsible and was encouraged to feel free in that sense.
Also trust has to come simultaneously with freedom; if you trust someone, trust his ability of rational thinking, u will not constrain him in a cage or in a list of dos and don'ts.This is the culture I was raised in, and by time it assisted me to a great extent to be more committed, responsible, self-disciplined, and self aware; i.e.continuously evaluating my actions in a consistent quest for developing myself to the better, and not to be conceived by irrational behaviors.

Here comes the question that aches me since I got aware of things and people around me:
Is there something wrong with that attitude??
Is it ethically improper??!!
Is it morally embarrassing???!!
Is it socially unacceptable????!!!!!
The reason I am asking is that I find people treating me like I am a freak, or an alien coming from another planet!!
to the extent that Guys are afraid to approach me for proposal or commitment claiming that this personality makes them feeling not at ease!!!!
makes them feel threatened by my intellectual thinking or my rational behavior!
Exactly what do these people want???
They want me to stay behind; to imprison my capabilities, to choke my freedom, to decapitate my dreams, for the simple reason that they would feel safer or superior????!!!!!!!!!
do you think this is their inherited right???
do you think that I actually should comply to their death sentence????????
Please someone answer me, should I commit this crime??
and for whose sake exactly??????
How cruel the world can be??!!

Oh Allah Purify My Soul!

Today I was feeling too gloomy,
I felt lonely, frustrated remembering all the failures and disappointments I went through and tears kept falling from my eyes,
I came to my laptop to search for an answer when I found those beautiful words that encouraged me to hang on:

"Everyone must learn to be patient with loneliness. Happiness begins from within. If we can’t tolerate being alone, it’s more likely that we haven’t found happiness yet"

"Sometimes, things change, plans fail, joy fades and excitements go.
You begin to ask why. But when you look above, all worries depart. God is always there for you."